Debbie Cole
Passionate Christ-Follower and Encourager of Women
I think I have struggled with how to explain ME…my whole life. I have a conflicted personality…as a resource once explained it. I want order, schedule and peace but I crave fun, crazy and the unexpected…how can all of these coincide in one person. That has been my journey – how to find peace in my conflicted self.
When I looked at the definition of my name – Debbie – in the Urban Dictionary I laughed out loud…truly!
A friend till the end, she’s got your back no matter what. A constant source of intense laughter. Speaker of the greatest ??? comments ever heard. An extremely beautiful person on the outside. Has an even more impressive inner beauty (if you are open-minded enough to look). Has more strength than all previous heavy-weight champions combined. – Urban Dictionary definition of my name, Debbie
I thought that is me…wait that isn’t me…there it is again…conflicted. I truly want to be that friend that has your back but knowing I am not perfect I struggle with letting others down. I love laughter and make it intense and long…but somewhere I struggle with looking refined and put together. Many comments run through my head…but when to say them and when to bite my tongue has been my biggest quandary. I feel many know me…but honestly there have been very few that have looked deeper to the inner Debbie. That isn’t anyone fault it comes with the territory of having a personality where people assume they know you.
Lastly – I am strong…I ride a Harley! Yet many times I doubt myself…can I do that…and it usually falls back on thinking I am not enough…smart enough, strong enough, talented enough, cute enough, young enough (added that one recently) …the list can continue but I think you get it!
My journey has evolved in realizing I am enough through Jesus Christ and His love for me…enough but not perfect and maybe that is where my conflicted soul has struggled. Enough does not mean being perfect but it means loving God, loving others to the best of my abilities and showing up for what God has for me each day. So that is ME.